Sometimes we get lost in the world of expectations. A place where people, culture, religion or even ego can cause people to change who they are and turn them into something they are not.

After my trip to New York, I returned to Malaysia fresh, alive and most of all happy. I really love New York you see, because the people in New York are as real as they get. No one there pretends to be something they are not, except maybe those young guys on Wall street but still if you speak to them they won’t hold back on saying what they think. 

Its been a week now, and I feel my happiness subsiding because people seem to be expecting me to be something that I am not. I cannot say what I think at risk of offending people, no one is willing to intelligently debate anything and most of all, I am becoming unhappy. I hate trying to be someone that I am not, I think there are some people out there that feel the same way from different parts of the world.

I can’t help but think of the productivity of the human race if everyone was just open and honest about who they are and what they want, rather than trying to satisfy everyone at once. I know my productivity was so much higher when this was the case. When I lived in Greece I was one of the most productive people I know. When I moved back to Aus I succeeded in many things, of which I will not brag about but it ended up with me being who I am career wise.

But there is some sort of stigma in this country (the only one that I know of really but thats because I haven’t lived in other parts of the world), that causes lack of productivity. If you do research, Malaysian productivity is extremely low in comparison to the rest of the developing and developed world. I can’t help but think that it is due to people being generally unhappy with being someone that they are not.

I know that in my business it takes 3-5 people to do the same as what 1 equally qualified Australian can do. And usually the Australian will win with the execution and time delivery of the project as well. 

Is being fake really a cause of unhappiness and lack of productivity?

Lets shoot over to e-sports for a moment. There are many fakers in e-sports. People pretending to be someone or something that they are not.

If they were honest and forthcoming with the truth, would they achieve their goals quicker? Would a player who tells his friends he is masters, but is actually silver, get to masters in a shorter period of time if he just outright said “I am in silver but working on it”. 

I can’t help but think the answer to this is yes.

This is going to plague my thoughts for a while.

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